JEEVAN JYOTHI VOL-1
Foreword
Introduction
Early Years
The change came
The storms were calmed
Empowered by the Holy Spirit
The prophetic Word of the Holy Spirit brings
victory
The Star of Bethlehem Church today
The trials continue
Journey through the Holy Land
Know His Love
Holiness
Humility
Gifts of the Holy Spirit
Fruit of the Holy Spirit
Visitors from Mauritius
Personal meeting with Bro.D.G.S.Dhinakaran
A grand holiday at Khandala
An unexpected gift …. A car
The Lord’s judgement
Conclusion
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FOREWORD
Dear Readers,
Greetings to you in Jesus’ wonderful name. The
Bible says in John 8:32,
“You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you
free”
It gives me great pleasure to present you this wonderful
little book. This book is written by Sis Saroja who has been established
by the Lord Jesus as His prophetess in Star of Bethlehem Church.As we see the lives of the older prophets, they spoke
what the Lord showed them. They lived to please God, not men. As the
Bible shows us whoever heard the prophets and obeyed were saved, but
those who ridiculed them lost everything. This book is an eye opener
for many who do not know the way of the Lord. You cannot cheat God knowingly
and He will not spare but He is a just and merciful Lord.Personally, Sis Saroja has been the greatest turning
point in my life and Ministry. The Lord has corrected me, my family
and congregation through His daughter Saroja many a times. That is why
the fear of the Lord is there in our Ministry today. He has used her
mightily to rebuild this Ministry.This book only speaks of a few things the Lord has revealed
or done through her. It is for us to believe and be corrected. Whom
the Lord loves he corrects.I hope, dear readers that this first book of hers shall
be a blessing to you. And I pray she may be led by the Spirit to write
many more books.She has been a pillar of strength to me and I believe
she will continue to support me in doing the Lord’s work truthfully.
I pray that the Lord may continue to use her in His own wonderful way.If you have been blessed by this book, please write to
me or the authoress at our church address given below.
May God bless you. Yours in the Lord’s service.
Pastor Godwin Salins
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“For, behold, the darkness shall cover the earth, and
gross darkness the people: but the LORD shall arise upon thee, and his
glory shall be seen upon thee.”Isa 60:2Our God made the light to shine out of the darkness.
Our Lord is the one who created the sun, moon and stars in the universe.
He is the maker of light. He is the King of Glory.The bible says in Gen 1:3,4, “And God said, Let there
be light: and there was light. And God saw the light, that it was good:
and God divided the light from the darkness.” Today, we see the people
of this world groping in darkness. Sin brings darkness in the lives
of people. The people are bound by this darkness and their suffering
increases.Sickness is a kind of darkness in man’s life, which
ultimately leads to death. Problems, division in families and various
other things are a kind of darkness in men’s lives today. People
are struggling like worms today in sin.Look at Jesus Christ, who brings light in our dark life.
The bible says about Him in 1 John 1:9, “If we confess our sins, he
is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from
all unrighteousness.” Children of God is the light of God in you today
? He brought us out of darkness to preach the gospel without fear.Apostle Peter writes in 1 Pet. 2:9, “But ye are a chosen
generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that
ye should shew forth the praises of him who hath called you out of darkness
into his marvellous light.”My beloved brothers and Sisters, no man can give the
true light in your life except the Lord Jesus Christ. Look at David
who asks the Lord to lighten up His life. Ps 18:28, “For thou wilt light
my candle: the LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.”Yes, Beloved brothers and sisters I would like to share
the miracles, experiences and happiness in my life through Jesus Christ,
who brought me from darkness to light. With the help and encouragement
of my good God I am writing this book. All experiences shared in this
book are true.
Sis. Saroja
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I was born on 2nd June, 1954 in Kaval Kinaru village, in the
state of Tamil Nadu, to a Catholic mother and Hindu father in a family
of 5 children, i.e 2 brothers and 2 sisters and me. I was the third
and was named as Saroja. I completed my schooling in my village through
a Protestant school. At the age of 19 in 1973 I was married into a Hindu
family and came and settled in Mumbai till date.
Until the year 1993, I lived a life of a sinner and according
to the worldly ways. Towards the end of 1993, I was not aware that there
is going to be a drastic change from darkness to light in my life.Earlier in the year 1990, some missionary Sisters had
visited my house and spoke to me about the Lord Jesus, about His life
and the miracles He had done. They also gifted me a Holy Bible which
I kept in my cupboard without even opening it and not realising that
this book would become the most important possession of my life in future.Then in the year 1993 my husband, son, daughter and myself
went to our native place to spend our vacation. There as usual we went
to visit the Tiruchendur temple in Tirunelvelli district. According
to the temple’s tradition, we have to break a coconut at the entrance
first and then enter the temple. When my husband broke the coconut,
an exact half of the coconut just flew away crossing the high compound
wall. We tried searching the half coconut which was flung outside but
could not find it. Since this was the first time this had happened,
we asked the pujaris who were present the reason for it. The pujaris
were surprised because such a thing had never happened before and said
that it could be a bad sign.
But dear brothers and sisters little did I know that
from that day onwards I was beginning to enter a new life with Jesus
Christ and He had already chosen me and there was nothing which could
stop me from following Him.
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On my return to Mumbai, I suffered from a massive attack
of allergy. During that time my neighbours, Sis. Ann and Sis. Eva asked
me to attend the healing services in Star of Bethlehem Ministry, which
I had heard about some time ago. I was hesitant to attend the same,
but on regular persistence I decided to give it a try. Then I came to
attend the Saturday healing service. When the songs were going on, a
particular song caught my attention that changed my life. I would like
to share the same with you dear Brothers and Sisters. It goes as follows
in Hindi language:
Jabse pyara, Yeshu ayaMera Jeevan badal badal gayaJabse maine, usey hai payaMera Jeevan badal badal gaya.Muje gum aur, musibatomeSahara dekar, sahara dekarMera paponka, bhoj lekharApne upar, Apne uparKrus par khoon, apna bahayaMera Jeevan badal badal gaya.Is jahaki, gandagi seMuje chudaya, muje chudayaAag dekar, muje gunahoseHai bachaya, hai bachayaTabse dil mera, man meri khayaMera jeevan badal badal gayaMuje kharida hai MasihaneKhoon deke, khoon dekeMai hun uksa, mera na koyeeSivay uske, sivay uskePutrane hai Pita se milayaMera Jeevan badal badal gaya.Mere rahon me na khateAb rahenge, ab rahenge,Meri manzil, me bhi matam,Ab na honge, ab na hongeHogayi hai dur, mautki sayaMera Jeevan badal badal gaya.Rath kali beeth gaye haiHuva Savera, huva saveraSubha ka tara, dekho chamkaYeshu Mera, Yeshu MeraIsliye maine yeh geet gaya, Mera Jeevan badal badal gaya.
After that heart-touching song, I felt a great burden
in my heart. I could not understand or express what kind of burden this
was. I then heard the Word of God through Bro. Godwin Salins. But the
burden in my heart did not lighten, but increased all the more. Then
Sis.Eva introduced me to Bro.Godwin and he prayed over me. Yet the restlessness
in my heart kept increasing. I had not carried my Bible to the prayer
meeting, being my first day.After the close of the meeting, that night as I reached
home, I felt the burden still within me. I was then led to read the
bible, which the missionary Sisters had gifted me three years back.
As I opened the bible for the first time, I read the verse, Mark 15:30, “Save thyself, and come down from the cross.”
As I read this verse, a strong urge rose within me to
read the whole chapter. And I read verses 1 through 35, after which
I was not able to read any further. I began to weep with tears in my
eyes. I wondered why I was weeping. I continued to weep for about 20
minutes. But after this I felt all my burden disappear and I felt light
in my heart. Then I began to read the bible from the beginning chapters.
After this I started attending the healing service every Saturday. My
dear brothers and sisters, all the allergy that I had on my body slowly
started disappearing. I was very happy and rejoicing in my heart praising
my Lord with all my being. I started to read the bible where I learnt
about the commandments of the Lord. I began to try to keep and obey
the commandments of the Lord.
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But my dear brothers and Sisters, the evil one was not
happy with me. At my home, my husband started arguing with me saying, “You have become alright now, forget about that place.” But only
I myself could understand the gladness that had entered my heart. Not
wanting to loose this joy, I tried to explain to him, because I did
not want to return to the sinful life. He did not agree.Gradually, after my husband would go for shift duties,
I would come to the prayer meeting without his knowledge. Finally he
came to know that I was continuing to attend the prayer meeting. And
one day he raised his voice and started quarrelling with me. Then I
withdrew alone by myself and cried out to the Lord with a loud voice
and prayed to the Lord saying, “What should I do O Lord?” And
I opened the bible and I read this verse, Ps. 30:11 “Thou hast
turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth,
and girded me with gladness.” After reading this verse, I decided
in my heart that whatever problems may arise, I will not forget this
good Lord who healed me and changed my heart. I immediately forgot all
the problems that occurred at my house that night and slept peacefully.
My dear brothers and Sisters, the very next morning my
Lord did a marvellous thing in my life. My daughter Padma suddenly said
to me, “Mummy you are not alone, I also will join you in attending
this prayer meeting.” When I heard this I could not express the
joy that filled my heart. Because of this I was more strengthened in
faith. At that very moment I remembered about the incident that took
place at the temple in my native place. I remembered the coconut that
broke into half and that half was not to be found. My daughter and I
talked about this and discussed that the evil one already knew that
half of our family would be out of his hands. Both of us together started
attending the prayer meetings regularly. Padma passed with a good percentage
in her final year and even before her results were out, the Lord blessed
her with a good job.
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Empowered with the Holy Spirit
In the meetings in which Bro.Godwin prayed many were
filled with the Holy Spirit. The evil spirits were also getting restless
in this place. Many people received their healings. Witnessing all these
things a thirst to be filled by the Holy Spirit also grew in my heart.
Every prayer meeting day I will pray intensely for the anointing. Many
times I felt in my heart that today I would receive the Holy Spirit,
but nothing happened. Then I became very sorrowful because even after
praying for many days I was not empowered by the Holy Spirit.After some days during the close of the meeting when
all the people stood up for prayers, Bro.Godwin would call out saying
that whoever wants to receive the Holy Spirit cry out and ask the Lord
Jesus Christ. As already I had kept this request in my heart before
the Lord, that day I was determined to receive the anointing. I began
to pray all the more intensely. At that moment I felt a strong vibration
coming over my body. And I began shaking from head to toe. I could not
stand and I slumped to the floor. When I would get up to my feet I would
not know anything. Many weeks this same incident continued. But I would
be filled with overflowing bliss and joy in my heart.Gradually during the prayers, my lips also would start
murmuring some words. Many times I would try to control my self. During
these times I would be right at the back of the crowd, of the many people
who would attend the meetings. Seeing me struggle like this always,
the people who stood at the back row asked me to go forward and stand
ahead near the front row. Many people persisted that I go forward and
stand. According to their advise, the next time I took my seat in the
front row.During that time, Sis.Ida would speak out loud as the
Lord was speaking. And I would hear people say, “Yes Lord, Yes Lord
!” Many times I heard Bro.Godwin mention that the Lord had entered
this place through Sis.Ida. Yes, maybe the Lord had entered in through
her, but I had begun coming to this place after about 7-8 years and
I also thought that this is true. At that time Sis.Ida and also some
other brothers and Sisters would also speak. But after I began to come
and whenever I would hear them speak, I would experience some strange
things. As I heard them speak, some words would just come out of my
mouth. But I did not understand this strange language. Yes, but I very
well understood that these ‘tongues’ were speaking out words
against the brothers and Sisters who were speaking at that time. After
the meeting I would never utter anything to anybody because Sis. Ida
was Bro. Godwin’s wife.
Finally, one day being filled with the Holy Spirit, I
went out of my consciousness and spoke some words. I did not know what
I spoke. After returning back to my senses, I could see Sis.Ida speaking
something In Bro.Godwin’s ears. Bro.Godwin being a good servant
of the Lord, but having no knowledge, listened to the voice of his wife
and laid his hand on my head and started binding me. But my brothers
and Sisters, no one could control the power of the Lord’s Holy
Spirit within me. There are many things that I can write concerning
these things but I do not want to hurt anyone’s feelings. Because
of this incident, I would be very grieved in my heart, but deep within,
my heart always carried great peace and joy.
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The prophetic Word of the Holy Spirit
brings victory
During the end of the year 1994, an open air meeting
was arranged by the ministry at Borivili, Mumbai. The meeting was arranged
according to the will of the Sisters and brothers who were speaking
as prophets in this place. During that time Bro.Godwin and the ministry
suffered tough times. Because of this meeting many people turned against
him. I did not attend this meeting since I had just begun attending
this ministry. During that meeting somebody lit a fire to the stage
pandal. But I knew that the meeting which took place, was not our Lord’s
will. After this meeting the ministry started sinking and the good Lord
started raising His holy voice out of my mouth. He began to lift His
ministry up. He started speaking out loud His Words through me. Since
that day to this very day in the year 2001, the Lord God has continued
speaking His words through my mouth.Because of the failure of this meeting, many people started
to leave this ministry. The people confirmed to themselves that the
Lord was not really speaking here. But the loving brothers and sisters
did not understand that the Lord had chosen this place for His divine
purpose. Because of the false prophecies, the people did not respect
Bro.Godwin. But because this place was chosen by the Lord, the Holy
Spirit openly started speaking His words through me and He started lifting
this sinking ministry.One of the problems which the ministry suffered, was
a court case. A case was filed against this ministry by some brother.
But the good Lord was guiding us what exactly to do. Every detail about
where to go, what to do and how to do, was revealed through me by the
Holy Spirit of the Lord. As the Lord had spoken and revealed through
me, in the same manner the brother withdrew the court case.As a custom there would be prayers in the church at 4:30
p.m. for all the prayer requests. Some brothers and Sisters would gather
for prayer. At that time one particular Sister started seeing some false
visions. She said that she saw a world map and a snake covering this
world map. But as revealed by the Holy Spirit I understood that this
was a wrong vision. After some time she also stopped coming to the church.
Today she is no more in this ministry. Likewise, many people began to
see false visions and false prophecy in the name of the Lord. But because
of the presence of the Lord, He did not allow this to continue in His
holy place. Many warfares with the evil one were encountered by the
church. But because of the Holy Spirit speaking and revealing hidden
things through me, the Lord Jesus Christ started giving victory in all
the spiritual battles that were encountered. Hallelujah !
During that time, Bro. Godwin was ordained as a Pastor
and accordingly he applied for the registration of the church. Previously,
whomever he relied on, all of them tried to stop this registration from
happening. But the good Lord spoke through me saying, “Apply again
and I will give you victory.” In the same way Bro.Godwin did it.
And miraculously in a very short time we received the church license.
After beginning this church, the Lord started correcting His people.
As some feared the Lord, they believed and accepted the words that the
Lord spoke through me. But on the other hand many disbelieved and started
going in their own ways. The few people who believed are here even today,
and the Lord has blessed them in their lives. But the people who did
not believe all went astray. Who can go against the Lord’s will.
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The Star of Bethlehem Church today
Today all the church members walk in fear according to
the will of the Lord. Many marriages, dedications and a couple of funerals
have taken place through the church. Even my daughter Padma was married
to a good life partner whom the Lord had showed. Many proposals came,
but according to the Lord’s will she was married to the boy of
God’s choice. Today she is living a happy life with her husband
and a three year old boy. They are members of the Star of Bethlehem
Church. The Lord added more members.But I would like to mention about the marriage of Bro.John,
which was held in the Star of Bethlehem Church. This marriage was according
to the will of the Holy Father. The Lord showed him the girl and he
willingly agreed and so did the girl. The marriage took place. But as
I explained earlier that nobody likes to accept the correction of the
Lord. Rejecting the correction of the Lord, many people started speaking
against this church. All lies ! I did not fear anything because I was
sure in my heart that this marriage was the will of the Holy Father
and not my own. The marriage took place with both sides knowing and
agreeing that it was the Lord’s will. But our good Lord always
spoke to Bro.John saying, ” I know how to bring her.” The Lord
many times repeated the same words. Bro.John believed in the Lord and
patiently waited for the fulfillment of God’s Word. In the same
way she returned back through Bro.John Rabindranath, to the same Star
of Bethlehem Church. Today, Bro.John is a father of a child through
her. But I believe the same Lord will do the work once again. I know
Bro.John will wait for this.
At present our church remains in a transformed state.
First of all there is holiness in the church. The Lord always speaks
to us in love and in authority. Whenever, He speaks in authority, we
are all very happy because He brings us out of this worldly sin. We
can then have this ‘Jeevan Jyothi” which means light of life.
Our Lord Jesus Christ is the light of the world. Whenever you read this
book, learn to give first place to the Lord, then He will give everything
to you as He has given me.
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Once again dear brothers and Sisters, the evil one tried
to attack me through my husband. Whenever I would return from any house
meetings, my husband would not open the door. And nearly after half
an hour after knocking and calling out his name, he would open the door
at his own leisure. On some occasions, hearing the noise, the neighbours
used to come out and watch this commotion. It was quite shameful for
me, but my good Lord gave me patience to wait and keep knocking till
he opened the door. Then one day, he did not open the door for nearly
two hours. And finally when he did decide to open, he told me that I
had no place in his house and that I should get out of this house. He
said, “You decide at this very moment, whether you want me or your
Lord.” As I had already made up my mind that the Lord is my first
priority, I took a big step in my life. I decided to leave my house
and stay in my daughter’s house, which by God’s grace was
near to my house.Then the next day, my husband went to Pastor’s
house and started complaining about me and told him many things that
were not true and unthinkable. Some of the things are that I was not
a good lady, that I did not go to the Hindu temple nor attend any Hindu
functions or marriages with him neither do I put a ‘tikka’
on my forehead and that I do not take care of my family. He told Pastor
to advise me not to come to this ministry. But Pastor did not listen,
as he knows the truth which is spoken through me by the Lord Jesus and
he knew that no one could stop me from coming. He said to him that my
church is open and that whoever has spoken against her or against the
Spirit in her is not alive or has lost their peace. He said if you want
to try, you try and stop her. But I will not do that. Then he grew very
wild on Pastor and started shouting and saying things like; I will give
a police complain against this church and say that they are forcibly
taking my wife into their fold. But Pastor told him to go ahead and
do whatever he wishes to. Then as the Lord promised time and again saying. “I will fight your battle. You only stand on my word.” The Lord
proved it when the very next day my husband came to my daughter’s
house where I was staying, and agreed that I could continue serving
the Lord and he would not be a hindrance for the same. But I should
only come back. I thank God for such a change in him.
My dear brothers and Sisters, when you follow the Lord,
follow Him fully, because many trials and tribulations will come in
your way and the Lord will also test you. But remember, finally God
will give you the victory. I would also like to add here that, when
I walked out of my house, I had nothing with me. No money, no clothes,
but I did not worry for anything as the Lord’s peace was with
me and that was the only thing I wanted. The Lord provided me with everything;
clothes, money, food through Sis.Janet Amin and Pastor’s family.
As it says in Mat. 19:29, “And every one that hath forsaken houses,
or brethren, or Sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children,
or lands, for my name’s sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and
shall inherit everlasting life.” He proved this in my life according
to this Word.
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After passing this test, which the Lord had set for me,
the Lord fulfilled my wish of visiting Israel in a miraculous way. One
day the Lords Spirit put a thought in my heart that it was time, we
should visit the Holy land. At the same moment without our knowledge,
a brother staying in Abu Dhabi had put a request before the Lord, that
he wanted to sponsor a visit to the Holy Land for the Lord’s servants.
Accordingly, Pastor, Sis. Ida, Sis. Janet Amin and myself along with
this brother visited the Holy place without spending a single rupee
from my side. i.e. the to and fro ticket expenses, hotel expenses, etc.
I was so happy because my Lord fulfilled my dream very soon.
I walked the same way where the Lord Jesus carried the
cross. The 14 stations of the cross. Right from the first place, that
is the palace of Caiphas, where the Lord was scourged and after that
is the place where He was given the cross to carry. The third place
again is the stop where Jesus fell down with the cross for the first
time. The fourth is where Jesus met His mother when she comforted Him.
In the same place, a white marble statue is made depicting His mother
and when we saw the face of Mary, we could imagine the sorrow that she
felt on that day. On the eight day of Jesus’ birth when Mary brought
Him to the temple, Simeon prophesies her in Luke 2:35,
“Yea, a sword shall pierce through thy own soul also,
that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed”.
The same pain was seen on her face.
When we see our mothers love for us through Jesus, we cannot stop praising
Him.
Isaiah the prophet, has spoken quite clearly in Isa 49:15-16, “Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have
compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I
not forget thee. Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands;
thy walls are continually before me.”and also in Isa 66:13. “As one whom his mother
comforteth, so will I comfort you; and ye shall be comforted in Jerusalem.”The places where Jesus walked carrying the cross today
is in the hand of the Palestines. Today on the road towards the cross,
there are many shops selling many types of things. But we never stopped
even at one shop to purchase anything because we just wanted to reach
the top of the hill and see the place where Jesus hung to death.The fifth place is where Simon carried the cross.“And as they led him away, they laid hold upon
one Simon, a Cyrenian, coming out of the country, and on him they laid
the cross, that he might bear it after Jesus.” Luk 23:26Who is Simon ? The bible does not elaborate much on who
he was. But history explains that Simon was an African, who came to
visit Israel. When Jesus was carrying the cross, Simon saw this from
afar and felt very sad and thought to himself, why are they giving this
good man so much pain. And when He expressed this aloud, the Romans
who overheard him, made him carry the cross. But Simon, if he had not
carried the cross, would he, who had not heard about Jesus be blessed,
is what I wonder?Ps 69:20, “Reproach hath broken my heart; and I
am full of heaviness: and I looked for some to take pity, but there
was none; and for comforters, but I found none.”Finally, we reached the place where the Lord was crucified.
Today, there is no cross there, but the hollows where the three crosses
were, are carefully covered in glass cabinets. Many of them were touching
and kissing the places and laying their petition before the Lord. In
the same way, I humbled myself and I reached out my hand into the hollow
where the cross was kept. When I put my hand into that place, something
strange happened to me. I distinctly felt someone holding the four fingers
of my hand and giving me a slight pull. For a moment I wondered and
tried to search with my hand in that hollow, but there was nothing in
that place. It was only covered with silver on the inside. Immediately
the Holy Spirit reminded me of the verse in Eph 2:16, “…that
He might reconcile both unto God in one body by the cross..” I
picturised the Lord on the cross holding His children’s hand on
one side and the Father’s hand on the other and reconciling them
both into one. My heart was filled with great peace and tears of joy
filled my eyes. The love for my Lord grew more at that moment.After this, we came to the place where Jesus was laid
down and His body was anointed and covered with a cloth. Even at this
place the Holy Spirit filled me and opened my spiritual eyes and showed
me which side the Lord’s head was laid. Then we were led to the
tomb of the risen Lord. Today, my brothers and sisters, the Lord is
not in the tomb but in that very place, I was filled with the Holy Spirit
and joy and gladness bubbled in my heart. Everyone experience’s
this in their life, if they give the Lord Jesus His rightful place.On Good Friday day, I have seen people acting out plays
by carrying the cross and trying and showing what Jesus experienced
at that time. But dear brothers and sisters, does anyone wish to carry
the real cross, that Jesus carried? Only He knows the real pain because
no one bore so much pain and sorrow for sinners like us.Today many will proclaim, that if I was present there
even I would carry the cross for His love. When He fell down with the
cross, we would have helped Jesus. But for such people, the Lord says
in Luke 9:23-24, “And he said to them all, If any man will come
after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow
me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosoever will
lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it.”
Mat 11:28-30,
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for
I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
In the same way, those who will carry His burden, those
who will bear His sorrow and those who share willingly, will definitely
be blessed and have His grace and mercy upon them. So dear brothers
and sisters, let us learn to carry His cross willingly and be blessed.
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In Mat 22:37, “Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt
love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and
with all thy mind.”
Before we loved Him, he had formed us in our mother’s
womb and loved us. Jesus died for our sins on the cross and showed us
how much He loves us. He expects us also to love Him in the same way
in which He loves us. He asked Peter not once but thrice, “Peter
do you love me ?” To the Ephesian church, as mentioned in Rev
2:4, Jesus says that your Love has now reduced.
“Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou
hast left thy first love.”
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He wants us to be holy like Him and as mentioned in the
scriptures,
“For I am the LORD your God: ye shall therefore sanctify
yourselves, and ye shall be holy; for I am holy: neither shall ye defile
yourselves with any manner of creeping thing that creepeth upon the
earth. For I am the LORD that bringeth you up out of the land of Egypt,
to be your God: ye shall therefore be holy, for I am holy.”
Lev 11:44-45Therefore if you are holy, you will be strong in Spirit
and challenge the evil one. You will also be able to pray strongly,
but without holiness in our lives no man can see the Lord.“Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without
which no man shall see the Lord”. Heb 12:14“O worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness:
fear before him, all the earth.” Ps 96:9.
Children of God, if you are holy the Lord will dwell
in you and work through you many miracles. Therefore, from today let
us learn to walk, talk, see and hear in holiness. When Jesus will come
again, He will only take with Him people who have obeyed and kept His
commandments. But the time that He will come, we do not know. So let
us correct ourselves from today and begin to lead holy lives.
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Dear brothers and sisters, the Lord always loves humble
people. The Lord has mercy only on humble people.“Surely he scorneth the scorners: but he giveth
grace unto the lowly.” Prov 3:34“But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith,
God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble” James
4:6“For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased;
and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.” Luke 14:11.We should learn to be humble before the Lord and His
servants and the Lord will bless and lift us mightily.“An hypocrite with his mouth destroyeth his neighbour:
but through knowledge shall the just be delivered” Prov 11:9.
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Pray in faith dear brothers and sisters, to receive the
gifts of the Holy Spirit. You should believe that He is a mighty God
and can prove this through His spiritual gifts. Acts 10:38. “How
God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Ghost and with power: who
went about doing good, and healing all that were oppressed of the devil;
for God was with him.”
If the Lord has already blessed you with these gifts,
you should keep praying all the more so that He will renew it. Even
in the Old Testament, Moses, Elijah and Elisha, the holy prophets, did
mighty miracles through the Holy Spirit. In the same way in the New
Testament, Peter and Paul brought a revolution through the gifts of
the Holy Spirit. The Lord will bless you with the same gifts as He is
not a partial God.
Gal 5:22,23; “But the fruit of the Spirit is love,
joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance:
against such there is no law.”
You will be filled with the fruit of the Holy Spirit,
if you surrender yourself and your life fully in the hands of our Lord
Jesus Christ. People will see Christ’s love in you and God’s
name will be glorified through you. May the Lord Jesus Christ bless
you.
When we were planning to go to Chennai, I remember one
incident which dear brothers and sisters, I would like to share with
you. About 3 years back we received a letter from Bro. Paul Dhinakaran,
saying that a brother and sister are arriving from Mauritius and before
coming to meet them at Chennai they will be staying for a week in Mumbai.
He also said that when he was praying the Lord showed him two Churches
in Mumbai and one of them was the Star of Bethlehem Church. He requested
us to take care of them.When we were praying about these visitors I got the following
verse,“And he said unto him, Behold now, there is in
this city a man of God, and he is an honourable man; all that he saith
cometh surely to pass: now let us go thither; peradventure he can shew
us our way that we should go.“1 Samuel 9:6.
As I read this verse, I perceived that this brother and
sister had come to see the Lord’s servant for some specific work.
So we gladly received them in our Ministry. Then the visitors came to
Mumbai and were staying with us at Star of Bethlehem. Mrs. Khedoo gave
the message in the Saturday healing service, as she was a Pastor in
Mauritius. After the service, when we were sitting in a group and praying
she wanted to test the Holy Spirit in me. I did not know whether knowingly
or unknowingly. She came to me and told me that we will pray together,
and as I joined my hands together, she held both my hands in her hands
and began to pray. As usual, the Holy Spirit started filling me. She
suddenly separated both my hands with her hands, but I was still full
with the anointing. After that, she lifted my hands, but I was yet full
with the Holy Spirit. Then suddenly, I realised that she was testing
me and then I prayed to my Lord saying, “O Lord I do not understand
what is happening, but let your will be done. You know my heart and
this sister’s heart.” Then suddenly I was filled more than
double portion and her hands were flung away from me. Then she realised
that she failed, she just kept quiet and praised the Lord. After this
incident, they tried a lot to contact Bro. D G S Dhinakaran but could
not get either him nor Bro. Paul Dhinakaran on the phone. They had to
finally go back to Mauritius without meeting Bro. D G S Dhinakaran.
On the day of their leaving, Mrs. Khedoo had severe stomach pain and
she lost her peace. I believe that the Lord tested them whether they
were worthy to meet the Lord’s mighty servant. But ended up testing
the Holy Spirit of God within me, for which the Lord was not happy.
After reaching Mauritus, they wrote to us and they still do keep in
touch. I believe after reading this book they will realise that Lord
has forgiven them and the Lord will bless them.
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Personal meeting with Bro. D G S Dhinakaran
Dear brothers and sisters, Bro. D G S Dhinakaran is no
stranger and is well known to all believers. My wish and heart’s
desire was that I wanted to meet him atleast once in my life. I never
expected that my good God would fulfill it so soon. I wanted to confirm
that the Spirit speaking through me is true, because many doubted and
were against me and this Ministry. As already written in the Bible in
Mathew 10:18-22.
“And ye shall be brought before governors and kings for
my sake, for a testimony against them and the Gentiles. But when they
deliver you up, take no thought how or what ye shall speak: for it shall
be given you in that same hour what ye shall speak. For it is not ye
that speak, but the Spirit of your Father which speaketh in you. And
the brother shall deliver up the brother to death, and the father the
child: and the children shall rise up against their parents, and cause
them to be put to death. And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s
sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved”.
I was well aware of these verses but as being human I
still wanted confirmation and wanted to meet Bro. D G S Dhinakaran.
The same Lord spoke through Bro. D G S Dhinakaran and he prophesied
that whatever the Lord has promised through Sis. Rovina Nander, Sis.
Shalaka Salins including myself were true. He also prophesied many things
for me, Pastor and for the Church and many things have already come
to pass in mine and Pastor’s life and the Church.I had given a testimony in the Church’s newsletter
which I am sure all have already read. But I would like to share it
once again which is as follows:“And whatever you shall ask in my name, that will
I do that the Father may be glorified in the Son.” John 14:13According to the above verse, the Lord Jesus promises
us that whatever we ask in his name the Father will grant it to us.
In verse 15, He also says that if we love him we must keep His commandments.
And He goes on to say in verse 16, that if we keep His commandment,
He promises to give the Holy Spirit to guide us. Through the Holy Spirit
we can overcome all tribulations of this world. The Holy Spirit of God
will guide us through every way.I want to explain this to you, with some recent experiences
in my life. About 2 months back, I had the desire to meet Bro. D G S
Dhinakaran we kept this matter in prayer, the gracious Lord opened the
way and we spent over an hour with him at Chennai. He spoke many things
to us, by the power of the Lord’s Holy Spirit. God answered every
prayer that we had made in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.But, my dear brothers and sisters before we could get
this blessing of meeting the Lord’s servant, the devil began to
devise his evil plans. On our journey from Mumbai to Chennai, the airplane
shook vigorously for atleast 10 minutes. I perceived that the evil one
wanted to scare us and lessen our faith. Then I prayed to the Holy Father
in the name of the Lord Jesus and He answered my prayer according to
John 14:14. “If ye shall ask anything in my name, I will do it.” We reached Chennai safely.We were very happy the night after we met Bro. D G S.
With great rejoicing in my heart, I spoke to the children at the Star
of Bethlehem Church and shared my happy experience on the phone with
great joy. The very next day I got a phone call from Mumbai from my
daughter Padma, who was 6 months pregnant. She began to have some problem
and called me up crying on the phone. Once again, through the Holy Ghost,
I immediately perceived that this was the devil’s work. The devil
is never happy when we are happy. I assured her not to worry and that
I would pray for her.
I remembered the verse in Deut 28:2
“And all these blessings shall come on thee, and overtake
thee, if thou shalt hearken unto the voice of the Lord thy God.”
I also remembered all that the Lord prophesied through
Bro. D G S concerning my family. Then I prayed in the name of Jesus
to the Father and then called up my daughter. She replied that the bleeding
had stopped but there was no movement of the child in her womb. I yet
persisted in prayer to the Father in the name of Jesus Christ and claimed
all the words of prophesy and also the work written in Deut 28:4 “Blessed
shall be the fruit of thy body…” After this I called Mumbai
for the third time at night and asked my daughter about her health.
She replied that she was completely well. Praise the Lord!From this experience, we should be aware that whenever
we get blessings, the evil enemy will always try to discourage us. Once
again, affirmatively I tell you that, whatever you ask in Jesus’
name, the Father will surely answer you.Many spoke against the Star of Bethlehem Church saying
that evil spirit was speaking here. Today I am proud in the Lord that
I met Bro. D G S and through him it was confirmed that the Holy Spirit
who is within me, is true. As the word of God says that all manner of
sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven men, but whoever speaks against
the Holy Ghost shall never be forgiven neither in this world neither
in the world to come. Many who spoke against the Holy Spirit within
me, are no more in this world and some are still living in total unpeace.Whereas, we in the Star of Bethlehem Church are very
happy in the Lord and every church member is blessed with his Love.
Whenever we pray for any Church member, the faithful Holy Spirit is
always ready to guide us and answer us by speaking to us.
I thank the Lord, that since 6 years he has been using
me as His prophetess in this Church. By my own, I am nothing, but in
the Lord I can do all things. I give the Lord Jesus all the glory and
praise. I pray that the Holy Spirit be with you and the Holy Father
answer every prayer that you make in the matchless name of the Lord
Jesus Christ.
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Pastor and myself had thought to ourselves that once
all the Christmas programmes were over we should try and go on a holiday
as we wished to renew ourselves before the New Year. This was kept in
prayer only between Pastor and me. Then suddenly the next day, a particular
Sister said she would like to give Pastor’s family and my family
a Christmas gift by sponsoring our trip to Khandala. I was surprised
and happy how my Lord had put the thought in that Sister’s heart
so soon and granted us our wish. I pray and thank that brother and sister
for giving us such a wonderful holiday. I believe the Lord will bless
them and will always be with them.
I therefore believe that if I give my full time to the
Lord, the Lord will bless me according to his promise. I thank my Lord
for using me and give full glory to him.
On my return from Khandala, I got an unexpected gift
a brand new Golden colour Zen Car. When I was asked about this gift,
I prayed to the Lord whether to accept this gift or not. The Lord showed
me Gen 14:22-23.
“And Abram said to the king of Sodom, I have lift up
mine hand unto the LORD, the most high God, the possessor of heaven
and earth, That I will not take from a thread even to a shoelatchet,
and that I will not take any thing that is thine, lest thou shouldest
say, I have made Abram rich:”
According to this verse, I was not happy. So they explained
to me if I do not accept it, the Lord will still help me in a different
way. The Lord spoke through Shalaka “I will bless you my daughter”. I therefore give all glory to my Lord Jesus who is fulfilling
my heart’s desire even before asking him.
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Dear Brothers and sisters, I would like to share a short
message with you. Proverbs 21:2.
“Every way of a man is right in his own eyes: but the
LORD pondereth the hearts.”
Whatever deserves to be corrected, should be corrected.
One does not realise his own mistakes and others mistakes seem to big
ones to him. Because of this, when we come into his Holy presence
and check ourselves the Lord will show many mistakes. 1 Cor 11:31, the
bible says,
“For if we would judge ourselves, we should not be judged”
The areas in our life that need to be corrected, Jesus
will reveal to us. In Jesus’ hand there is a mighty weighing scale,
in which he will weigh all our thoughts and judgement will be given
accordingly.
In Daniel 5:27,28, we read that the king of Babylon was
weighed in the balance and was found guilty.
“TEKEL; Thou art weighed in the balances, and art found
wanting. PERES; Thy kingdom is divided, and given to the Medes and Persians.”
And in verse 30, the king was murdered and he did not
see the next day. Before going to the scale, we have the mercy of the
Lord Jesus Christ today. Therefore, from today let us check ourselves.According to this verse, one day suddenly, the Lord’s
scale came on Miriam’s life for every account of the word she
spoke against Moses. The Lord questioned her as to, “Why did you
not have any fear before speaking against my servant? And the anger
of the Lord was kindled and behold Miriam became leprous white as snow.” Numbers 12:8,10.
Dear brothers and sisters, be careful before speaking
any unwanted words from your mouth, because you have to give account
for every loose word you speak against the children of God.
Mathew 12:36. “But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak,
they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.”
Ecles 10:12,13. “The words of a wise man’s mouth are gracious; but the
lips of a fool will swallow up himself. The beginning of the words of
his mouth is foolishness: and the end of his talk is mischievous madness.”
One should be like the Psalmist, who asks the Lord to
search and find him, and to cleanse his thoughts. Ask the Lord to make
you to walk in righteousness and pray steadfastly to the Lord. Ps 19:13.“Keep back thy servant also from presumptuous
sins; let them not have dominion over me: then shall I be upright, and
I shall be innocent from the great transgression.”I would like to mention another thing here. All the Church
members know Zubin Salins, Pastor Godwin Salins son. In Zubin’s
life, the Lord had promised many mighty things. Some years back in a
vision, the Lord gave me a particular verse “Jesus wept” John
11:35, both for Zubin and Roshan to share in the Church. I wondered
why the same verse was given for both of them. Today, all have heard
a part of Zubin’s testimony, but inside stories are many. I believed
Zubin and he hurt not only me, but also his father who had full faith
in him. I have already written earlier, that many had given false visions
in Star of Bethlehem Church and he is one of them. Finally, Zubin made
up his mind to make the children of God separate because he could not
cheat his father. How the Lord corrects other Church members, the same
way the Lord corrected him many times and asked him not to give false
visions. Whatever is written in the book of Leviticus and what a man
should not do, he did most of the things in hiding. When the truth was
revealed, he started saying that whatever the Lord revealed was lies.
Because of this, he took a lot of beating from the Lord and ran out
of the Church. In his life, whatever the Lord promised was delayed because
of the countless sins and false visions. Today, once again we are praying
for our merciful Lord to forgive him as he has accepted all his mistakes
and come back. Now I understand the meaning of the verse, which the
Lord gave a few years back for Zubin and Roshan to preach.
I have given Zubin’s example especially as a message
for the youth of our Church. Therefore, my dear children, do not fall
into the same sin as Zubin and do not speak against the servants of
the Lord because everything is open before the Lord and He will bring
everything to light.
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Today dear brothers and sisters, in our Star of Bethlehem
Church, many sisters and brothers are being used as the Lord’s
mouthpiece because of this, Pastor and I are very happy. We believe
that in the coming days as we worship our Lord in one heart and mind,
the Lord will abundantly bless us. After reading this book, I am sure
you will decide and give the Lord Jesus Christ, His rightful place in
your life and walk according to His commandments without thinking twice
what people will talk about your belief and life. One should carry the
cross in the same way and obey God, as Jesus obeyed His Father’s
will.Therefore dear brothers and sisters, let us check our
lives today and try and know, what the Lord’s will is in our lives
as the Lord is coming very soon. I would like to share a particular
verse here, which the Lord revealed when I was praying how to conclude
this book.
Zechariach 9:6,7.
“And a bastard shall dwell in Ashdod, and I will cut
off the pride of the Philistines. And I will take away his blood out
of his mouth, and his abominations from between his teeth: but he that
remaineth, even he, shall be for our God, and he shall be as a governor
in Judah, and Ekron as a Jebusite.”
According to this verse, we all know what is the present
situation in Israel and I believe that the end is coming soon. The abomination,
that is the heathen temple, which is now in the grip of the Palestinians,
will soon be removed and the Lord will shed blood out of their mouth
and the Lord’s temple will remain there. This is the sign of the
coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. Whatever is written in the Holy Scriptures
will surely come to pass. Therefore, I pray that each one repents and
prays to our Lord Jesus Christ for his or her own salvation.
Praise the Lord and may the Lord bless you.
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